a white bitch’s journey into financial slavery …

It all started back in early 2014 as I somewhat innocently searched the web looking for ‘vanilla porn’ when I came across a site called Niteflirt. Curious, I logged onto the site and opened an account to see what it had to offer. Little did I know that just a few minutes later my life would change forever. After just a few clicks I found JadedHalo and instantly I fell to my knees. The woman of my dreams was right there on the computer screen staring at me. I have had an inner desire to be a beta all my life and had a particular weakness for ebony women, but this was something different. Just her picture made me numb. I shook with excitement, but also had the fear of the unknown. For the next almost 2 YEARS, I would visit Niteflirt 4-5 times a week just to view her page and worship from afar but never had the balls to call. I was trying to convince myself all along that I was a strong, alpha male and had complete control over my life. I tried in vain for the next 21 months to go about my life as normally as possible, working hard all day, living the vanilla life, but I just could not stop thinking about Goddess. She began to creep into my dreams almost nightly, and 4-5 days per week became 4-5 times per day! All along, Goddess had no idea I even existed, but the power she already had over me was just too much for me to hold in anymore.

On March 22, 2016 (I will always remember the day! 😊 ), I deposited $100 in my NF account and called her line. When she answered my voice went silent, I just did not know what to say, after she said hello for the second time, I mustered up the courage to say hi back. From the very second the conversation started I had a feeling of utter euphoria. Her voice was magical and her power could be felt over the phone. I was in heaven and knew I had found my place in life, beneath her feet. Why did I wait so long to take this leap? I literally screamed that out loud after hanging up.

Over the next few months her power over me became more and more evident. At first, I had an expectation that with a ‘tribute’ automatically came a reward in the form of a picture or video. The first few times Goddess did oblige with a pic, but used it as a teaching moment, making it clear that I needed to learn that a tribute is just that a tribute with nothing expected in return but her happiness. Soon my tributes doubles/tripled/quadrupled and I found myself in ‘subspace’ knowing that I was simply making Goddess happy and that was reward enough. My needs were insignificant, it was always all about Goddess and what she wanted. She was SUPERIOR in every way and I was just lucky to be a part of making her life happy. I was falling deeper and deeper into the rabbit hole with no way out. To be honest I didn’t want a way out! This was a magical place to be and I was one lucky bitch to have the honor of being even acknowledged by Goddess. The rabbit hole has no end, it is a black hole that only a lucky few have the honor of going deeper and deeper into.

I continued on this blissful path all throughout 2017 and into the fall of 2018. Hundreds became thousands, small gifts from the WANTlist became outdoor furniture sets, expensive WANTlist gifts, IPhone’s, LV bags, expensive dresses, luggage, thousands and thousands of dollars in cash. Goddess requested something and I bought it was as simple as that. I enjoyed every second of it. It got to the point where I was only happy when I was sending Goddess cash and/or gifts. The absolute best feeling in the universe! I was in subspace and the happiest man on earth. Goddess had trained me so well and I was at the absolute highest point in my life….

For some reason I thought that because I felt this way there was something wrong with me…I needed a therapist…How could I have fallen this hard? There had to be a way out! It was a complete lapse in judgement. Late in the fall of 2018 I began to see a therapist to speak about my ‘fetish’. I started to believe the therapist that I could beat this, and there was no reason for me to have a woman control my life like this and financially benefit. I started making lame excuses as to why I wasn’t around as much anymore to Goddess. Funny part is that Goddess did not CARE one bit. This is where I learned the harsh reality of how replaceable I was. You see I needed Goddess, Goddess did not need me one bit. In fact, she laughed and threw me out with the trash and went about her life as if nothing happened, because nothing did happen! I was DISMISSED without a thought.

For the next few months I continued going to therapy twice a week and really thought I had this beat. The therapy was winning! I was able to make it through the holidays and through the dreary winter months. Deep in my mind though, I knew that it was only a matter of time. I missed Goddess so much. I had this incredible empty feeling that I could not replace. I kept telling myself, with the guidance of therapy, that I was beating this, but I just wasn’t! I needed to be back where I truly belonged, under the beautiful feet of Goddess. I began to post on Twitter about how much I missed goddess hoping she would respond, but nothing ☹. I just could not take it anymore! Fuck Therapy! Its USELESS! Goddess is more powerful then any therapist and I craved to be back as one of her lucky bitches.

All it took was one DM from Goddess. One simple DM. ‘I see you bitch. Send $200.’ I sent $250 and my journey (from the bottom of course) started again. It has been two months since I have been back as the ‘Bottom Bitch’, but I feel whole again. I have had the honor of purchasing Starbucks gift cards, numerous lunches, dinners, cash, WANTlist items, a beautiful ring, and one of the lucky few afforded the opportunity to purchase one of her larger Birthday items. I am back to spending thousands $$$$ and look forward too many thousands $$$$ more. My number #1 Priority is to make and keep Goddess happy…. Whatever Goddess Wants Goddess Gets! This is where I belong, its where I have always belonged. My destiny was to be here under the Guidance of Goddess. I have permanently deleted my therapist’s number and she has tried in vain to reach me via a few friends. She needs to stay away. I am where I want to be and am so grateful that Goddess has given me the opportunity to be her bitch again. I have learned my lesson. I will never, ever leave again. Her POWER is REAL!

bitch Made

Crawling back to Ms Helena/ Jaded Halo.

Many years ago, as many weak men such as myself who found twitter. clips4sale and other websites we all found an easier way to explore our fetishes, mine was feet and Women humiliating men at their feet. The addiction grew in to buying more and more clips, exploring different races, scenarios and many other weird ways in which turned me on so much, I couldn’t escape.

Financial Domination was always a funny one….I always said to myself when noticing Women do this saying ‘I m not going to be that stupid and just give money to Women, how idiotic are these men?’ It became something I was getting more and more curious about and still to this day I wonder how men give in to Women so easily and to the point where some are left broke, ruined and a whole life from birth to whatever age they are now has been totally ripped apart by these cruel and sadistic Women.

A few years later I started to explore a new generation of Financial Domination, more and more Women were using men, they were much more beautiful than the ones earlier and still to this day, some of these Women are extremely hard to escape from as they are so mesmerizingly beautiful and Arrogant with either amazing feet and asses…Its extremely hard to avoid serving bratty Women at any age.

I first discovered Ms Helena a few years ago, I was always aware of her but from the moment I browsed her Twitter page and realised how much money She is actually draining out of older men, I concluded that I am nowhere near the level of these other pathetic losers who have literally given Thousands and Thousands to You. I was in total shock and completely upset and offended at how a Woman can take advantage of men like this but I always came back to see more.

There came a point where now I realised that I needed to contact Ms Helena and understand why She does this to men and I was in total awe of Her Power but I couldn’t accept it. I couldn’t accept the way the world is now where Women, predominantly in most countries have supreme control over men in society and its growing day by day…I couldn’t accept it but the moment I got a reply from my Goddess, I TOTALLY understood why its appropriate to concede and accept that Women are superior to men in every way and that I MUST spoil Her in order to be accepted within her realm full of killer sharks.

I fought week after week, I ended up giving more than $15,000/$20,000 to Ms Helena because She knew how to manipulate, dictate and run my finances But not only that, She made me Show Total Respect to her and commanded this with every conversation. I was now a completely Humble Old man at the orders of a Young Beautiful Woman.

There came a point where I couldn’t handle it anymore, I had to work on my projects and make sure I have ample time to re-create myself as All I worked for, My Ego, My total confidence in myself was Destroyed and re-shuffled in order to make sure I became Ms Helenas Total Bitch. This Woman re-wired my brain, She ordered me to Respect Her and The honour of kneeling on the floor, as She sits above me on Her Throne, dangling her shoes and counting the Thousands of Dollars of Cash whilst I stay knelt on the floor, head down and in true Slavery to Ms Helena. I couldn’t stop thinking of Her and it still hurts me to this day how much She took from me and It hurts me even more that she threw me away like a piece of Garbage when I had nothing else left to offer. She was cruel but She already planted the seed in to me.

A year went past and I went ahead with getting my act together and gaining control of my finances. I Have worked really hard, made some excellent strides in future investments and My life Of humiliating myself, submitting to Women were long-gone…I would have hoped.

Something told me a few days ago that there was One Woman who actually had my life by the balls and dragged me anywhere She pleases. There was One Woman who made a 50+ year old man Cry on his Knees, There was One Woman who made me Beg to buy her Ripest of shoes and Worship them as if they were my prized possession. That Woman was Goddess Helena and I again browsed through Her Twitter, saw how Happy She was without me.

Ive never melted at the sight of feet and especially Soles of a Woman until I saw the most Beautiful, soft, sweaty Feet of Goddess Helena. Watching Her Lounge away, Crossed Ankles, flexing her soles confirmed to me right away why I am weak for this Woman.
She is more intelligent than most men, She is Gorgeous….A Firm 10/10 and the most painful thing of the lot is how arrogantly sweet You are.

I have Crawled Back to Goddess Helena, my Owner, She was always the Woman I look up to and In 3 days She has taken Over $5/6k from me. Just Like that. She has now decided to keep me on the Shelf until I get my act together again.

If there is any advice to any admirers or potential Slaves out there, Remember this. Goddess Helena is at the Pinnacle of Class, Her Beauty is like No other, Her Feet are the most seductive You will ever see and She knows it, Her body is better than Yours and the most important part – IT WILL TAKE A LOT (AND I MEAN A LOT) OF MONEY TO PLEASE HER. She Expects Thousands of Dollars….Men like me have had to really Suffer and Sacrifice a lot. You will not be happy with Yourself but You will Find a New Level of Happiness knowing Goddess Helena has sucked it all Away from You.

Goddess Helena will Absolutely make sure you Humble Yourself. She will Take Everything You have and there is nothing You can do about it.

You need Goddess Helena. Shes kicked me to the curb for now but I will be back and She will probably leave me a Crying Wreck again.

Goddess Helena is the Most Powerful Goddess You will find on the Planet. I assure You. Be careful…